Actor Wrote ‘I Want to Be in the Joker’ in His Journal 3 Months Before the Audition. What Happened Next Launched His Career

Connor Storrie didn’t just stumble into stardom—he manifested it.

Three months before landing his breakout role in Joker: Folie à Deux, the 25-year-old Texas-born actor wrote in his journal: “I want to be in the Joker.”

Now, he’s the face of Heated Rivalry, Canada’s hit sports romance series that’s earning him international recognition for everything from his convincing Russian accent to his unfiltered approach to LGBTQ+ storytelling.

In a recent interview discussing the show’s debut season finale, Storrie opened up about portraying vulnerability, why happy endings matter for queer stories, and navigating sudden fame alongside his co-star and best friend.

Why the Finale Resonates So Deeply

Storrie’s favorite episode is unsurprisingly the season finale, where his character Ilya Rozanov—a closed-off hockey star—finally declares love for rival-turned-partner Shane Hollander, played by Hudson Williams.

After five episodes of denial and suppressed feelings, viewers finally witnessed emotional release.

It’s starting to get real. It’s the end to that yearning we’ve been feeling all season. We get to see deeper into these people that the viewers have invested so much time, energy, and thought into.

The finale marks more than just narrative closure—it represents Storrie’s transition from aspiring performer to recognized talent. His previous work includes a small but pivotal role in Joker: Folie à Deux, but Heated Rivalry catapulted him into global visibility.

Storrie calls the experience “the biggest blessing in the world,” adding that even if everything ended immediately, he’d remain grateful.

Choosing Joy Over Trauma in Queer Storytelling

Unlike many LGBTQ+ projects that center suffering, Heated Rivalry concludes its first season on an optimistic note—a deliberate choice that Storrie initially struggled with.

Jacob Tierney was super vocal about not having this down-and-out gay story that ends in tragedy. That was really insightful for me, because I can be such a drama junkie.

Storrie learned that prioritizing authentic representation matters more than personal dramatic preferences. Show creator Tierney emphasized that the story resonates beyond surface-level appeal—it carries meaningful weight for audiences seeking hopeful narratives.

The finale also subverts expectations when Shane, not Ilya, panics after their relationship is discovered. Ilya remains calm—a shift that reveals deeper character layers.

Understanding Ilya’s “Grumpy” Exterior

Storrie describes Ilya as someone who appears not to care but actually cares intensely once someone breaks through his walls.

In these more stoic cultures, it’s like, if I don’t know you, you’re not in. But the moment you are in, I will fucking die for you. Once Shane was in, Ilya was like, “You’re mine forever. I will do anything for you.”

Shane, by contrast, lacks the same emotional fortitude—making Ilya’s steadiness in their relationship’s most vulnerable moment all the more powerful.

Trauma That Shapes Everything

The finale revealed why Ilya built such formidable emotional barriers: he discovered his mother after she died by suicide.

His father swept the tragedy under the rug. His brother resented him for how he showed up afterward. Nobody spoke about it again.

That point is everything to me. Those are situations that, not to sound hyperbolic, ruin people’s lives. I carry that with me in everything I do with Ilya.

This backstory informs every aspect of Storrie’s performance—why saying “I love you” feels impossible, why winning championships provides only temporary satisfaction, why genuine compliments don’t come easily.

Authentic Intimacy Under Gay Direction

Heated Rivalry features extensive intimate scenes between its male leads. Tierney, who is openly gay, frequently referenced his own experiences to guide authenticity on set.

Storrie found this directorial approach invaluable.

100%! I can’t imagine being directed by someone who doesn’t have firsthand experience in that way, just because the sex is so specific and so visible. I think it could work, but I don’t think it would be as awesome as it is.

Having someone with lived experience ensured scenes felt genuine rather than performative—a distinction that elevated the show’s credibility.

Season Two and Cultural Responsibility

Heated Rivalry received renewal for a second season amid increasing rollbacks of LGBTQ+ rights across North America.

Storrie acknowledges the weight of continuing this story during challenging times.

Everyone needs to prioritize stories that matter, and not just from a business perspective, but also what people are literally screaming for societally and culturally. All I can do is show up as well as I can in my show and support and champion other stories that resonate with that.

For season two, Storrie hopes to explore deeper vulnerability now that Shane and Ilya have moved past initial discovery.

We’ve played the game of discovery between Shane and Ilya, and now I want to play the game of knowing and understanding.

From Childhood YouTuber to Directing Features

Storrie’s childhood YouTube videos recently went viral, revealing his early determination to pursue acting.

Unlike many actors who discovered their calling later, Storrie knew immediately.

I wanted to do it before I even knew it was a job. I was hungry, and I was sure.

YouTube provided both creative outlet and practice—a foundation that continues serving him. Between filming seasons, Storrie directed an iPhone feature called Transaction Planet with close collaborators, demonstrating his multifaceted artistic ambitions.

Manifesting the Joker Role

Before auditioning for Joker: Folie à Deux, Storrie watched the original film and journaled about wanting involvement in the franchise—despite no sequel being announced.

Three months later, he received an audition. Director Todd Phillips didn’t reveal Storrie’s actual role until his first day on set: he would ultimately kill the Joker, positioning his character as the “real Joker.”

That role earned him his Screen Actors Guild card.

Drawn to Characters Who Need Therapy

Both Ilya and Storrie’s Joker character share inner darkness rooted in pain.

For people who hurt others or choose aggression, brashness, or a tough exterior, 99.9 times out of 100, it comes from a place of hurt. Both those characters have that.

Storrie describes his Joker portrayal as “pathetic” not in a derogatory sense, but as someone who inspires genuine empathy—qualities that create emotional bridges between seemingly different characters.

Looking forward, Storrie seeks roles that challenge and frighten him, particularly characters whose humanity he doesn’t immediately understand.

Navigating Fame With Your Best Friend

Storrie and Williams experienced parallel journeys into celebrity—quitting their jobs within days of each other, flying out together for production, now gaining international recognition simultaneously.

Hudson is my best friend, and I literally can’t fathom doing this without him. This has been the highlight of my life, and meeting Hudson makes that 10 times sweeter.

Their shared experience has created not just professional partnership but genuine friendship—making overnight success feel less isolating and more like collective achievement.

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